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LIFE GOES ON ...

2009-03-11T14:11:28Z

LIFE GOES ON ...

Sometimes we do things without thinking, then are left to wonder later why we did what we did. Circumstances change & one is left to find a new 'normal' in their life. The Bible sais something about he who puts his hand to the plow & looks back is not fit for the family of God. So I suppose the lesson is that looking backward to our shoulda's, woulda's, coulda's, if's, ands, & buts...serves us no good purpose. That we can't 'undo' what is done. We can only make the most of where we are in the given day.

Sis & I both beat ourselves up a lot about things we've done that have culminated in our mutual present state of living. We both second guess ourselves about what was so bad about the lives we had that we had to go & screw everything all up. But then we both have to realize that had we been at all happy, we wouldn't have made our choices as we did, ending in separation & divorce.

She thinks of Ricky all the time...regretting her actions. I think of Ronnie & just think that 'if only he hadn't drank like he did'. If given half a chance she'd run back to Ricky in a heartbeat, for she still loves him. On my part...I think that I simply miss the financial security. Oh sure. There are certain aspects about Ronnie that I miss. I didn't spend 18 yrs with him not have liked something about him. I have to be careful sometimes to not mentally compare Billy & Ronnie. For the two are nothing alike. I think a part of me does still love Ronnie. But he wouldn't do the most important thing & i couldn't live with it.

The problem I'm seeing in myself these days is being afraid to actually rise up & take charge of my own life. I'm still depending on others, both emotionally & monetarily. Somehow I'm trying to reach deep inside of myself & lean on that serenity prayer. But I'm also afraid that if I 'stretch my wings' I might not make it. I might fall & find myself alone & desparate. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change; the courage to change the things i can; & the wisdom to know the difference." Am I so afraid of self sufficiency? And if so ... why?

So where does Ronnie & Billy play in all this? Ronnie has moved on, with, I hear, a scanky looking woman who looks like she's been rode hard & put up wet. I've moved on with Billy who has some physical problems that are an issue in our relationship. Do I love Billy? Yes I do. But not in the same way I loved Ronnie. Ronnie helped raise my children, was a wonderful provider, good friend, yet ultimately let alcohol destroy what magic there was. Billy has been my heart's first love since the age of 16. Even when I divorced the 2nd time, I had wished to run into him even way back then. Our hearts have sought one another for 30 years. Ours is a different kind of love than I shared with Ronnie.

I lost respect for Ronnie on several levels. I don't know why he let everything get in the way. I miss the way things used to be. I was secure. But people started butting in. Circumstances changed & the wrong things took priority in his perspective. And I fell out of love with him to some degree.

Unlike my sister, I can't say that i would go running back to ronnie if given the chance. a lot....& I do mean a LOT of things would have to change before that were possible. And knowing Ronnie as I do...it will never happen.

But I also can't say that I haven't considered running from Billy either. Uncertainty of the future has a great deal to do with it. this is my 4th relationship. I'm beginning to think something's wrong with me & the choices I'm making in my world. Can't be far from the truth.

Anyway, those are my thoughts for the moment. I'm borrowing Sunny, my friend's gaited palomino, this week & sister & i are going for a long ride up at Lake Hawkins. About a 4 hour ride. I'm looking forward to that a lot. We're going by ourselves, without any men tagging along to drag us down emotionally.

Well that's it for now. Hope ya'lls world is going alright. Take care.

omg i went to the taste of chaos tour. with jess, erin,jen and myself of course...

2009-03-10T15:02:55Z

omg i went to the taste of chaos tour. with jess, erin,jen and myself of course...

and aghhhhh it was AMAZINGG !!! senses fail kicked ass.. so didnt mcr and the used...

and like i was there with my 2 best friends erin and jess. and like agh i couldnt pick anyone different to be there with..

THE USED ! omg bert it was his birthday..

hAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BERTTT !!!! lol

he threw the cake and it landed on mad people.. then he asked if anyone would suck his dick for his birthday..

i stood up and was like HELL YEAH ! ahaa

they played -- i caught fire ( in your eyes )..

we all know that was me and my ex's song.. and ahh it got me all upset listining to it..

cause like we all ended on bad terms and it would have been like 10 XXXXX better if like we were still together and went to the concert together... :) but too bad things dont end up the way u want them to...

New updates

2009-03-10T15:02:13Z

New updates

- mike and i arent together..

- Jess and i arent friends

- arielle is STILL with adam

Man what else to say thats enough drama right there...

today is me and mikes 14 months well would have been anyways

i made him cry today.. it made me feel good for about 5 mins then i felt bad

oh how that sucks ass

well nighty nite

Install That Entry Door Yourself

2008-07-22T14:19:38Z

Install That Entry Door Yourself

Five Steps to a Brand New Door

Door replacement is a task that any homeowner can complete, with basic skills, a few tools and patience. In fact, this can be a wonderful opportunity for the do-it-yourself person to learn a new task and save a bit of money that might otherwise be paid to a professional. The choice of a the correct door design and finish can change the look of a room, attract the visitor to the outside of the home, and also help keep the home airtight.

For basic understanding of this task, there are three types of doors: combination doors (screen/storm); entry doors; and interior doors. Five simple steps can lead the individual through the task of replacing an entry door. As most experienced homeowners know, mastering entry door replacement gives the individual the knowledge to replace interior doors (a simpler version of the entry-door technique).

Replacing a combination door follows the same steps as that for entry doors, but the process can be a bit more complex. Manufacturers generally provide good instructions and suggestions for installing combination storm/screen doors. Following these instructions carefully will usually lead to completion of the project with success (and reduced stress). Professionals at the home improvement center or hardware store can also be an excellent source for tips and suggestions.

But where should the do-it-yourself homeowner begin with installing doors? Here are five basic steps for the process, starting with:

Remove The Old Door

Careful removal of the old door is an important first step. After opening the door, place a wedge under the outer corner to take the weight off the door hinges. Remove the hinge pins and set the door aside. This door can be used as a pattern for trimming the new door if it has not been seriously damaged or if it isn't too badly warped.

Remove Hinge Leaves

The next step is to remove the hinge pieces from the frame. Depending on the desire to use existing hardware, these hinges can be reused or new ones can be substituted. Older hinges can be lightly buffed with fine sandpaper to restore some of the original appearance. Be sure the screws for the new hinges are long enough to reach into the stud behind the door frame.

Trim New Door

It would be wise to use the old door as a pattern for the new one. The alternative is to measure the door opening and allow a 1/8" bottom clearance as well as a 1/16" top and side clearance. The bottom clearance for a carpeted floor will probably have to be 3/4". Trim and plane door as necessary, using a fine-tooth saw and good plane.

Prepare New Door For Hinges

New areas must be carved out so the hinge blades can fit smoothly into the frame and door. Using the old door can help with proper location of hinges. A pencil outline of the hinge is essential for cutting this depression in the wood. Carefully chisel out the wood, with several cuts to the depth of the hinge leaf.

Interior Design-Feng Shui Values

2008-07-22T14:19:15Z

Interior Design-Feng Shui Values

Feng Shui is not a decorating style, nor a collection of ornaments for an interior design project. Feng Shui is an art, or a discipline that involves complex elements: religion, philosophy, astrology, aesthetics, mathematics and a "little something" called the "chi" (a person's inner energy or "cosmic breath"). Translated literally Feng Shui means "wind-water" and is the art of achieving harmony not only for living spaces, but also for day-to-day living and life. Feng Shui takes its inspiration from the natural environment.

In the traditional Chinese thinking, nature is balance and harmony. By following the patterns of nature the Feng Shui practitioner can achieve this balance in his/her home and in his/her life. While in China Feng Shui is a discipline, in the Western world this is just an interior design technique, with more or less clear rules and unambiguous patterns. The main concept of Feng Shui designs is based on "wind", "water" and nature's "chi". This is why Feng Shui practitioners will focus their decoration patterns on aligning the elements to follow the natural flow of nature. For example, among the guidelines for proper Feng Shui designs, decorators should avoid clutter, straight lines and sharp corners. Clutter is supposed to create a "bad energy" and shift the focus from harmony to chaos, straight lines are associated with the paths followed by evil spirits and sharp corners tend to attract dirt (cobwebs, dust, etc).

In the western world, the religious beliefs of Feng Shui don't matter. Interior designers don't use crystals, Feng Shui water fountains and mirrors because of their supernatural abilities, but as mood boosters. Planning a working space (office) so that the worker faces the entrance has a logical explanation: no one likes to be distraught by unexpected visitors. Feng Shui decorators use colors, light, water and even music and sound to attain a space that contains a strong positive energy. For example bedrooms should be always free of bad "chi". When the energy in a bedroom is hostile it may cause problems within the couple. A messy room has a bad "chi". Clothes or other items scattered around the bedroom create clutter. Dirty windows increase the bad "chi". Lack of fresh air it's even worse. Believe it or not, these are basic principles of the Feng Shui as much as they are common sense aspects.

Out of the all rooms in a home, the kitchen is the most sensible to bad "chi". Smells are important for a good "chi". The kitchen has often not so pleasant smells, especially when cooking. Although for the senses a steak's aroma is delightful for a short time, how would you feel to breathe each day an air that smells like meat? You'll lose appetite. So it is important for a kitchen needs to be permanently clean, free from garbage and broken plates and cups, aerated on regular basis and neat. The predominant smells in the kitchen should be related to fresh fruits of herbs. While the art of Feng Shui takes a lifetime to perfect, its basic concepts should be followed in each interior design project: harmony, tidiness, cleanness and freshness.

Porch Screens

2008-07-21T15:22:39Z

Porch Screens

A screened porch is a safe haven for many people during the summer. It is shady, often cooler than the inside of the house and gives people the opportunity to sit outside in the fresh air without having to worry about being inundated by bugs or other creatures. People are especially grateful for the screens on their porches when they want to eat outside. There is nothing worse than having some bug land right in the middle of your dinner.

There are, of course, different types of porch screens. There are two basic varieties: the kind that will keep bugs out and the kind that will keep larger creatures out.

Insect screens are typically made up by mesh that is either eighteen by fourteen or eighteen by sixteen. These numbers refer to the number of wires per inch. There are always eighteen wires per inch going in one direction on a porch screen, but insect ones can come in either fourteen wires per inch or sixteen wires per inch going in the other direction. Typically these wire arrangements create squares that are smaller than one sixteenth of an inch square. These two variations of insect screens will keep out must of the bugs that would be a bother, but experts suggest using a twenty by twenty mesh one made of fiberglass for porches that might have a problem with very tiny bugs.

These screens can be made from the aforementioned fiberglass as well as galvanized steel, aluminum or bronze. Each type of screen has its own problems. Galvanized steel mesh has to be replaced the most often because the coating that protects it will flake off, which will let the wires of the screen rust. Aluminum will stand up to corrosion or rusting, but does not work well in coastal areas.

Pet-Resistant Screens (the type of screens that will keep larger creatures out) is a fairly new development. One brand, PetScreen, boasts that its screens are seven times stronger than the porch screens made to just keep the insects out. Pet-Resistant screens are made of polyester that has been vinyl coated. It is installed in the same way that insect porch screens are installed, but offers a sturdier barrier between your porch and the creatures who might try to wander on to it.

There are also wind resistant and sun-shading ones which are made from stronger mesh that can resist the wind and other products that can help protect the people sitting on the porch from up to ninety percent of the sun's heat and UV rays.

Screens are a good idea, especially if you live in an area that has a reputation for its bugs or stray creatures. Even if you live in an area relatively bug and creature free, the wind resistant or shadier screens might be a good idea. They will make sitting outside more comfortable almost no matter what the weather conditions happen to be.

Choosing the Proper Paint Color & Finish For the Interior of Your Home

2008-07-18T09:37:34Z

Choosing the Proper Paint Color & Finish For the Interior of Your Home

When choosing paint colors and finishes for the walls and ceilings in your home it can be a tricky process. There are an endless amount of finishes and paint colors to choose from and deciding which ones will best fit your décor can take a great deal of decision making.

There is an infinite quantity of colors to choose from, though this seems as if it would be accommodating, it's more likely to become irritating. This can be an especially hard decision if there are a great deal of shades that catch your eye or fit well with how you have envisioned the design of your room.

Collecting samples of different colors and patterns can help to give you ideas about what you might want to choose to makeover your space. It's also helpful to know how certain colors can affect our moods and emotions. You would not want to paint your bedroom in a loud shade when you go to that place for sleep, relaxation, and tranquility. Just like you would not want to coat your office in a color that suggests slumber or rest when you it is a place that you go to something important accomplished.

People sometimes choose to select the color of their space and then the hue of the furniture, carpet, decor, etc. This can make the course of action more complicated than it should necessarily be. If you hold off until you have chosen the decorating scheme for the room then you will have a much easier time choosing the paint that goes with the entire color design of the room.

Once you have chosen a color for the interior of your home, make certain to double check that it's exactly what you have envisioned. It is always possible to choose something that may seem like it will go with the nature of the room, but in reality it does not do the room justice. If you take the time to make sure you have chosen the right paint for your space it can help you to save yourself a great deal of strife

Choosing the right finish for the surface that you have painted is just as important as the primary paint job. Adding a finish to your ceiling can help to spice up the room and make it much more appealing.

Adding a finish to the ceiling is best to do in areas that are held in reserve. These areas can include but are not limited to living rooms, dens, and/or dining rooms. Ceilings are usually painted with a flat finish. Flat finishes are the best for ceilings because they are easy to touch up and they hide flaws especially well. Having a finished ceiling is a significant part of having a home that looks put together and polished.

Choosing the best paint and finish for the surfaces in your home can help bring together a well-designed look for its interior.

Prepare Your Rooms for Interior House Painting

2008-07-18T09:35:48Z

Prepare Your Rooms for Interior House Painting

Being a homeowner is a huge responsibility as the house that you live in is not only the foundation where your nearest and dearest are, but it is your biggest asset in terms of your financial outlook. Many homeowners view this responsibility from both the investment and the family perspectives and as a result, are continually making improvements to their home. Consistent renovations to your home are a way of making your home a happier and more pleasant place to live, as well as to increase the value of your investment should you ever decide to sell your house.

The easiest and least expensive way of increasing both intrinsic and extrinsic value to your home is through interior painting. House painting is a very common means of home renovation that can give your room or set of rooms an instant facelift and is very easy to do on your own. If you decide to add house painting to your list of things to do this year, here are a few tips you should keep in mind before you get that first roller wet.

Painting your home's interiors requires a great deal of preparation and calculation. After you have selected the themes and colors for the room or rooms you are painting, you will need to ensure your rooms are adequately prepared before you begin painting. Even the cleanest rooms and walls will need the surfaces to be prepared before you begin the painting stage.

You first want to take off all of the switch plates from the walls and conduct a thorough dusting of your room. Use a feather duster or broom to sweep out every corner from ceiling to floor and then vacuum the room thoroughly.

Look for any holes or cracks in the wall surfaces and patch them up with spackling paste or wall plaster. Once you have patched any holes, you will then need to sand over the patching or spackling to ensure the patch you have created is flush with the wall. This will ensure a flat even coat of paint on your wall. Once you have done this, you will have to dust and vacuum again as sanding will create a large amount of dust. Ensure you dust and vacuum not only your floors, but the walls as well. Sanding will leave dust particles that may not be visible to the naked eye, and your paint will find those dust particles if you don't leaving unsightly bumps on your walls.

Your next step before you begin interior house painting will be to wash your walls thoroughly. You can use a mop to reach the corners and higher areas, but you need to wash and rinse your walls of any cleaning residue. Once your walls have dried from the washing, you are ready to begin your interior house painting. Use painters tape to mark off door ways, baseboards, and ceilings so that your paint applications are smooth and even.

If you follow these steps you will find your interior house painting experience to be one that is not only simple, but rewarding. The preparation in interior house painting is often a more arduous task than the actual painting itself. However if you prepare your walls and your rooms properly, you will find the hard work will pay off in beautiful interiors for your home.

What Is Feng Shui Interior Decorating?

2008-07-18T09:35:39Z

What Is Feng Shui Interior Decorating?

Interior decorating, in Nassau County, is generally focused on the selection and presentation of interior items within a space, such as furniture, accessories, and the application of finishes, such as wallpaper, fabrics and furniture. Sometimes, erroneously referred to as interior design; which is a design field that deals with the structural layout or design of a space, interior decorating is different; which is more concerned with finishing touches rather than the structural layout. Interior decorating is often used to spruce up or modify an existing space through the use of color and decoration, essentially giving the room a makeover. Usually less costly than other renovations, because it doesn't involve major structural modifications, interior decorating is an easy to do it yourself project, that anyone can undertake.

The term interior decorating is mostly used for private homes and apartments in Nassau County and includes such things as window treatments, slipcovers, carpets and rugs, wall finishes (paint and wallpaper), the placement of decorative elements such as, lamps, mirrors, objects d'art, paintings, wall hangings and collections of photographs or antique objects. The objective of interior decorating is to create a room or series of rooms that is aesthetically pleasing yet functional for those who live there. The art of decorating a room so that it is eye-catching, simple to use, and functions well with the current architecture, creating a beautiful home by improvising color plans and accessorizing with elegant features. Although interior decorating is a visual art, it is sometimes done professionally by interior decorators.

Interior decorating is a business, in Nassau County, where good people skills, business sense, and creativity are necessary, it is not just "having an eye" for color or recognizing quality furniture. Because interior decorating is less technical than interior design, there is no formal education or licensing requirements for interior decorators to fulfill. Although many people use the terms interchangeably, interior decorating is less technical than interior design. While interior decorating is an important aspect of interior design, interior design encompasses a much greater scope of practice and professionalism.

The field of interior decorating is undergoing constant change and growth. The trick in home interior decorating is to develop and integrate a harmonious balance between all the elements that you would use to create room design. The latest trend in interior decorating is adding numbers and letters to your home. As far as home interior decorating is concerned, every nook and corner has to be studied so that the available space is utilized to the maximum. A great example of interior decorating is using old barn boards as paneling or flooring, or feng shui; based on a Chinese belief that everything has energy in your life, including things, places, and people, which is an increasingly popular interior design style. Many design schools are now offering classes or certificate programs in feng shui interior decorating. It is often associated with Asian interior decorating, but it can really apply to any style.

Feng Shui, which is all about balance and harmony, is a wonderful way to help bring a level of balance to the room you are designing, and increase the flow of positive energy in your life. For example, when decorating a dining room, feng shui offers tips that will inspire healthy eating and digestion. It has been used for centuries to help in the areas of happiness, romance, and love in families and relationships, as well as, creating an environment that is healthy and positive for your life. Feng Shui is relatively easy to understand and easy to apply, not mysterious, restricted or unavailable. It is more spiritual in nature than intellectual or physical, although both physical and intellectual cures are used to connect you to the power behind Feng Shui. Simply moving the furniture around or redecorating your home is not what feng shui is all about, there is much more attention and thought given to the furniture placement and décor.

Feng Shui philosophy is based on the five elements (fire, water, metal, wood, and earth), and relies heavily upon the creative cycle. The Chinese have used feng shui not only in home interior design, but also in agriculture and urban planning. Many of China's major cities are planned using feng shui. Successful business people like Oprah Winfrey, Rupert Murdock, and Donald Trump have reportedly used feng shui in their homes, and many offices and hotels are now employing feng shui consultants. With many wealthy people using feng shui home interior design, designers with experience in this specialty are in high demand.

In conclusion, some millionaires claim that feng shui helped them to get where they are, but you better believe that a great deal of the responsibility for their success comes from their hard work. Many homeowners turn to feng shui interior decorating to change the feel and energy inside of their homes, creating a better life and environment for yourself and your family. In our society today, where everything is a rat race, applying feng shui to the home or the office, can enhance the happiness, prosperity, and good fortune of the occupants, while creating serene, healthy, and balanced surroundings. So, if you are decorating your home any time soon, remember to use feng shui.

Decorating Town-House Halls, Part 1

2008-07-18T09:35:28Z

Decorating Town-House Halls, Part 1

A beautiful home deserves a grand entrance that lives up to the promise inside. The refinement of the town-house style provides just such an elegant introduction to gracious living.

First impressions count. However small, the area immediately inside the front door is more than merely a place to hurry through on your way in or out; it sets the tone for what follows in the rest of the house. The classic elements of the town-house look add character and distinction to any hallway.

The essence of the style is tradition and formality. Characteristic features include timeless elements such as black and white tiled floors, fine architectural and decorative detail, and a symmetry of arrangement. It is a sophisticated look, but need not be expensive to recreate. While the effect is elegant, practical requirements are well served.

Halls are connecting spaces, which means that decorative choices must be made very carefully to avoid abrupt clashes of color, pattern, and style in the transition to other rooms. This does not mean that bold and striking effects must be ruled out, but it is best to plan the look of the hall in the context of your overall decorating scheme.

Every hall takes a certain amount of battering from the daily comings and goings of household members, so surfaces must be able to withstand a fair degree of wear and tear. Town-house style has the practicalities covered. The look incorporates many time-honored elements, such as floor tiling and paneled wainscoting areas, which provide tough and easily maintained surfaces. Other nods towards practicality involve equipping the hall with a mirror, a small table for leaving keys, messages, and mail, and maybe a clock.

Above all, as the initial encounter with your home, halls must be welcoming to visitors. Stylish finishing touches, in the form of fresh flowers and decorative objects set the right mood.

Creating the Look

Walls: Neutral tones may be a safe bet in the hall, but the overall effect tends to be a little bland. A positive color gives an immediate lift that clearly spells out a welcoming message. Try yellow for a bright, warm feel, particularly in a hall that receives direct sunlight. Warmer tones, such as cerise, are also effective if the hall is dark, while soft greens are soothing.

Wainscoting is a traditional feature that earns its keep in the hall. The convention is to cover the lower third of the wall space with a hardy surface, such as a textured paper, that can withstand greater abuse than the rest of the wall treatment. You can achieve a similar effect using a coordinating border in place of the wainscoting rail. The visual distinction between the upper and lower portions of the wall effectively lowers a high ceiling. For a classic town-house effect, set off the walls with crisp white woodwork and moldings. Eggshell or satin finishes are more elegant than high gloss ones.

Many hallways in period houses have architectural flourishes in the form of brackets, cornicing, and corbels. In a featureless modern hall, apply strips of curved coving to the junction between walls and ceiling to lend a note of distinction.

Floors: The classic town-house solution is some form of graphic black and white tiling - in marble slabs, ceramic tiling, or linoleum - that looks crisp in entrances.

Alternatively, carpet the hallway, provided you supply some additional protection for the areas of heaviest traffic. Natural fiber flooring in sisal or seagrass is a good, traditional option for an understated look.

A buffer zone by the front door, where shoes can be wiped clean, helps to keep the rest of the floor in good condition. The neatest solution is to stop the main covering about a yard (meter) short of the front door and cover the remainder in coir matting, sunk to the same level and running across the full width of the hall.

Lighting: Halls should be well lit, for safety and security. The main hall light can be an eye-catching feature in its own right. In many hallways, such fixtures are viewed from above as you descend the stairs, so pendant lights and lanterns that enclose the bulb are more attractive than those which leave it exposed. Regency-style coach lanterns or a chandelier are in keeping with the look. If you wish, you can install wall sconces or table lamps, but these should not be the sole sources of light.

The front door: To make the hallway seem more spacious, it is a good idea to paint the inside of the front door the same color as the interior woodwork, leaving darker, glossier shades for the exterior of the door only. Glazing in or around the door increases the sense of openness, provided security is not jeopardized. If your existing front door lacks character, replace it with a period-style paneled door, with or without glazing, to add an element of architectural distinction.

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2008-07-14T05:14:49Z

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